There are days when I wish I had responded better, when I know I really could have handled that situation better especially when I have all the head knowledge and the tools to do so. It's frustrating at times, you know the day after and you are like, "why didn't I say this, why didn't I do it this way". I truly want to be SO full of Christ that it's my first choice to respond the way He does. I know how to but placing that into action is the problem. It's almost as though confusion try's to set up camp right in the moment when I need to respond the way Christ would have me. The day after I am filled with you "should've". I'm not sure maybe I am all alone in this delicate dance between flesh and spirit. But I do know that God knows my heart, I have the desire to be like Him, and I pray He consumes every fiber of my being so I will look, act, and be more like Him.
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psalm 73:26 NIV)